To New Beginnings

It turns out the rose was more than correct, since then I have found a new job with less hours, better pay, kinder coworkers, and incredible benefits. This new career is going to help my family in more ways than I could have ever imagined. It feels like I have finally caught a break. I can’t express it enough when I say that when things go ori or out of plan, to not worry! There is a greater plan for us all and it will always work out. It usually works out better than you could have even planned for. This is something I was never taught growing up. I was basically trained to worry when something slipped off schedule and I have had to pay for this mentally over the years. Taking a step back and realizing that it is okay for things to not work out, has been a life saver. I now have the opportunity to continue my education, all expenses paid, and with that will come pay increases, but most importantly the more time I have to be at home with my family has doubled, and that is absolutely priceless. Being with our loved ones and being there for each other, to help take care of each other, will never amount to what money can buy for us. I want to be clear when I say “YOU DO NOT NEED TO WORRY WHEN THINGS DO NOT GO AS PLANNED.” From the deepest part of my soul to yours, it is all apart of the plan. As long as you keep working hard, being kind, and following your passions it will always be okay. Although, this new job is great for where I am at right now in my life, I am also prepared for the time when maybe it isn’t working out for me, you just never know, and rather than thinking of it as scary. I am thinking of it as exciting and just taking each day as it comes.

Many things have happened since the great firing incident of September 2019, the first being that we have officially moved into our tiny home after months and months of hard, but gratifying labor. It has been one of the greatest decisions I have ever made in my life and it suits me and my fiancĂ© extremely well. That’s right. The second being that we got engaged in January. Our family has really become solidified between our new home and the planning of a wedding and we couldn’t feel more grateful. Our dog has adapted well to the tiny house lifestyle and is thrilled to see his parents getting married. I need to write more about our dog, his personality is unlike any dogs I have ever met. I think all dog moms say that though…. I need to write more in general and I do realize that I keep saying this, but do know that I have not given up entirely. It is always on my mind, but between taking care of my home, work, spending time with friends, family, and the endless amount of hobbies I have accumulated it is hard to squeeze everything in.

If anyone has tips on when or where they write that could help me set more time aside for it then please share. For now, I write when I have time for myself and reflection. My fiancé started a job last year working up at a ski resort during the winters, and I have found that when he is away and working in the evenings I have more time for writing, painting, cooking, etc. As much as I miss him when he is not here, it has been nice to have our tiny home to myself for a few hours a week. I plan on using more of this time for writing and planning my garden in the spring.

I didn’t want to write about any specific topics today. I just really wanted to write and to express myself. I am still trying to figure out where I am going with this blog exactly, but have recently come to terms with the fact that my family and my friends are what truly inspires me and gets my creative wheels turning. I have surrounded myself with talented, smart, independent people that just make me want to create and express myself through that light. I have seriously been thinking about turning this blog into a YouTube channel because I feel that it would add a whole new layer of creativity for me, but we will see. I am an Aquarius and tend to just go with the flow. I have been enjoying that way of life lately because it wasn’t always like that. My life was extremely scheduled for so long, that now having time to think about what I would like to do with my day based on how I am feeling has been so refreshing. I guess this does tie back into my minimalist theme that the blog was founded on because my significant other and I have cleared out every single thing in our lives that are unnecessary. By doing this we saved ourselves time. Sweet precious time. We downsized our home and in turn downsized our chores, we eliminated holidays, and have just narrowed it down to what we truly want out of life.

It really comes down to two things. Number one is having more time for our hobbies. We love being outdoors and try to spend most of our free time camping, hiking, snowboarding, mountain biking, fishing, reading, gardening, forgaing, and paddle boarding. Number two is having time to enjoy these hobbies with our loved ones. As you can see, we have SO many hobbies, and those are just the ones we do outdoors. We crave experiences together. I know so many people that have lost this desire throughout there lives because of the hussle and bussel. I treasure these qualities shown throughout our generation. The world is finally waking up. I feel more awake and aware than ever before. I am excited and it just makes me want to write and get to know more people who are thinking this way. My dream is to build a tiny house community out here on our land someday where we would live as a community and share chores and free up even more of our time for art and music and just plain old fun.

Gosh I am a dreamer. I am the dreamer that the realists hate and compare themselves too. I have so many ideas and dreams that sometimes I feel like I will explode if I do not express them to someone soon. The tiny house community will happen someday. This I know. We will be building a wrap around deck for our home this spring and then I am planning on sharing pictures of our home and maybe creating a video. If this sounds at all interesting to you then keep reading and join our minimalist community because we were not born to work we were born to live.

I hope you find joy in my expression of words. Any thoughts, comments, ideas, or even collaborations are greatly appreciated!

Advice From A Rose

I told the rose what had happened and she looked at me and asked, “Are you okay”.

I told her, “I will be, but I have never been laid off before and it just doesn’t feel good.”

The rose replied, “Well, I have been laid off many many times and this probably won’t be your last time. It usually happens for a reason and if money is your biggest concern then don’t worry because you will always find money. This is your opportunity to do something bigger because I always thought you were underemployed. I want you to know that we love you and will miss having you around, but this isn’t where you were supposed to be. I wish I could have been strong those times I was laid off, but sometimes I couldn’t be so I would lay around and sulk, but you don’t have to do that. (My boyfriend and I had just purchased a tiny house :D) Your house will be delivered next week and you get the whole week off to get all moved in. I don’t know how much more perfect that gets. The universe is working with you here even though it may not feel like it. Enjoy your paid week off, go on a trip, move into your house, and don’t worry about money because it will find you and you will have to be working every day soon enough. I always try to take jobs that just make me happy and make me feel fulfilled and I don’t think you were getting that here, so it is time to move on to something new”

I started a new job back in April working for a small business. There were a total of 5 employees including myself and it lasted a total of 6 months. I was laid off at the end of September because the owner felt that she could not afford a fifth employee after all. You are probably wondering “What will this girl do without a job?” or others may be thinking “Laid off? That is horrible. I have never been laid off!” Well those same thoughts ran through my head at first because my mind instantly began to panic. I was worried about what my friends and family would think of me without a job. God for bid. A life without work? This is unheard of.

Okay. Enough sarcasm. Here is the back story because I was thinking of quitting too.

I found this position on the wonderful Craigslist. A platform filled with opportunity and endless possibilities. Okay, I am feeling very sarcastic today. This may not end so bear with me. The job posting stated Executive Assistant/ Production Assistant for a holistic minded, outdoor enthusiast skin care company. They were looking for someone to work in the studio that was organized, detail oriented, mathematically inclined, had holistic views, cared about the environment and recycling, and knew about tinctures and essences. Well that pretty much sums me up to a T, plus many other strengths, so I wrote the best cover letter I think I ever have before and landed a job interview. The studio was at the owners home in her upstairs which I thought was a very relaxed work environment. There were plants and crystals everywhere just like at my house. In the interview we discussed why I wanted to work there, my previous work experience in accounting and production coordinating, my math and analytic skills, my productivity and communication skills, and she was very impressed with my business degree. She wanted me to help with unit costs, production, and wholesale accounts. It sounded like the perfect job right?! I get to use my business degree for a business that sells all organic skin care products and essences. Then my job started…

Somehow I ended up driving her kids to school and picking them up? She shopped online a lot and rarely kept anything so I was returning things constantly. I helped in production by filling tea and labeling products which was somehow always incorrect or could be done faster. It was the least chill environment I have ever worked in and not like anything I mentioned above right? Then I ended up being the gardener somehow which was fine, but I have my own garden at home that I enjoy doing for fun not work. I enjoyed harvesting the calendula for the face mask, chamomile for the tea, and cornflowers for the face steam, but not taking care of her hundreds of personal plants too that had nothing to do with the business. I mean that isn’t why I spent $60,000 on college. I wanted to work for this small business to help them improve and grow like I did at my last job. That is what we talked about in the interview… I thought? I started looking for new work a few weeks before she laid me off because she had a huge landscaping project that she wanted me to do for her because she didn’t want to pay the landscaper rates. Not to mention the 5 different landscape companies I scheduled to come out to her home and provide quotes. I flat out told her NO, that the landscapers are paid a high wage because it is back breaking work and they are compensated for it in return.

So anyways she ended up laying me off and it felt absolutely horrible for the first hour and then I felt excited because now I could fully look for a new job in a company that will get to use me for the skills I possess and in return I will get to grow my skills. I am also hoping the job I end up in is the same as the interview, but who knows these days. She laid me off over email on a Sunday afternoon and never spoke to me about it in person again. I worked the full week after and told my coworkers what happened in privacy as it was a big awkward secret that was never openly talked about. I am going to miss them though. They were a few years older than me and always had the greatest advice with very positive attitudes. I think that many of us were trained to always do what we are told just because someone is the “boss” or “in charge”, but from my experience you can be seriously taken advantage of for being a kind person. Rose gave me the courage to tell the owner no about the landscaping work because she was taking advantage of me knowing that I probably would not tell her no and she would save a few dollars. I am sure that is the true reason I was laid off, but I felt so great that day and even better things are happening now. That is my Expression from a Minimalist today. You always have the option to say no. You are in charge of your journey through work, relationships, and life. You know what happens when you decided to not just take what you get anymore or just do what other people say all the time? You get much more and you feel incontrol of what is happening in your life. That is a huge part of minimalism right? Having control of every detail in your life with less stress. I love it. If this sounds at all interesting to you then keep reading and join our minimalist community because we were not born to work we were born to live.

I hope you find joy in my expression of words.